i have been leaving my blog empty for quite long already...actually most are drafts that never got the chance to see light. i shall let them remain as drafts until one day, maybe one day i'll post them out...until then.

Been really upset over my laptop that died, have been laptopless for a month already bah. So difficult to live without one, imagine only get to surf web on company com and on hp only at home. Been also left weak by all the chalets stuff, $, my birthday, your birthday....

lol it's funny how both leaves at the same day, and for almost the same duration.
Somehow it seems like a challenge. This time...i will learn, i will think and i will try....
to be independent, abt our probs, live widout you
Dear please don't let me wait to see a change. I am afraid...bcoz we'll walk away...drift away and then we'll eventually lose each other. Or it will be juz me...

I like this song below...really nice and sad.

爱错 | Ai Cuo | Loved Wrongly
by Wang Lee Hom

北风毫不留情
bei feng hao bu liu qing
The north wind mercilessly

把叶子吹落
ba ye zi chui luo
Blows the leaves off the tree

坠落的它选择的逃脱
zhui luo de ta xuan ze le tao tuo
It, who has fallen, decides to escape

叶子失去小心
ye zi shi qu xiao xin
The leaf loses it's caution

风才感觉寂寞
feng cai gan jue ji mo
The wind starts to feel lonely

整个冬天
zheng ge dong tian
Throughout winter,

北风的痛没人能说
bei feng de tong mei ren neng shuo
Nobody is able to express the feelings of the North Wind into words

我从来没想过
wo cong lai mei xiang guo
I have never ever imagined that

我会这样做
wo hui zhe yang zuo
I would do this

从来没爱过
cong lai mei ai guo
I've never loved before

所以爱错
suo yi ai cuo
Hence I've loved wrongly

我从那里起飞
wo cong na li qi fei
Where I've took flight

从那里降落
cong na li jiang luo
Will be where I'll descend

多少不能原谅的错却不能重来过
duo shao bu neng yuan liang de cuo que bu neng cong lai guo
So many unforgivable mistakes, yet I cannot start over again

翻开回忆角落
fan kai hui yi jiao luo
Browsing through the corners of my memories,

完美的生活
wan mei de sheng huo
The perfect life

以为幸福都可以掌握
yi wei xing fu dou ke yi zhang wo
I thought that bliss was something that I could always grasp

仔细回味当初 那个故事背后
zi xi hui wei dang chu na ge gu shi bei hou
Carefully recollecting the story

Oh 原来是我
Oh yuan lai shi wo
Oh! as it turns out, it was I who

犯下从没承认的错
fan xia cong mei cheng ren de cuo
Have committed a wrong that I've never admitted

我从来没想过
wo cong lai mei xiang guo
I have never ever imagined that

我会这样做
wo hui zhe yang zuo
I would do this

从来没爱过
cong lai mei ai guo
I've never loved before

所以爱错
suo yi ai cuo
Hence I've loved wrongly

我从那里起飞
wo cong na li qi fei
Where I've took flight

从那里降落
cong na li jiang luo
Will be where I'll descend

多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过
duo shao bu neng yuan liang de cuo que bu neng cong lai guo
So many unforgivable mistakes, yet I cannot start over again

在这少了你的世界
zai zhe shao le ni de shi jie
In this world without you

Oh 找不回那些感觉
Oh zhao bu hui na xie gan jue
Oh I cannot retrieve those feelings

其实我不想道别 那些过去
qi shi wo bu xiang dao bie na xie guo qu
Actually, I don't want to bid the past goodbye

我从来没想过
wo cong lai mei xiang guo
I have never ever imagined that

我会这样做
wo hui zhe yang zuo
I would do this

从来没爱过
cong lai mei ai guo
(I've) never loved before

所以爱错 (从来没有爱过那么认真)
suo yi ai cuo (cong lai me you zhe me ren zhen)
Hence I've loved wrongly (I've never been this serious)

我从那里起飞
wo cong na li qi fei
Where I've took flight from

从那里降落
cong na li jiang luo
Will be where I'll descend

多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过
duo shao bu neng yuan liang de cuo que bu neng cong lai guo
So many unforgivable mistakes, yet I cannot start over again

我会这样做
wo hui zhe yang zuo
I would do this

从来没爱过
cong lai mei ai guo
I've never loved before

所以爱错 (从来没有爱过那么认真)
suo yi ai cuo (cong lai me you zhe me ren zhen)
Hence I've loved wrongly (I've never been this serious)

我从那里起飞
wo cong na li qi fei
Where I've took flight from

从那里降落
cong na li jiang luo
(Will be) where I'll descend

多少不能原谅的错
duo shao bu neng yuan liang de cuo
So many unforgivable mistakes

请你原谅我的爱错
qing ni yuan liang wo de ai cuo
Please forgive me for loving you the wrong way